American Dream

If your actually taking the time to read this, let me make it straight that right now im FUCKING PISSED! its not because of something that happened or any misunderstandings ive had with people. I can honestly say that if you have been happy your whole life you have not lived. There is no such thing as the perfect life. yes everyone can keep pursuing that "American Dream." But is that really real? The perfect job,the perfect wife,the perfect kids,and the beautiful house on the block. It can all be be done if you keep "pursuing." dude im fucking 17 years old and that sounds like a bunch of bullshit! Im not tring to bring anyone down or bring upon you false thoughts.I live in Hayward and im faced with conflicts everyday! Whether its family problems,school,friends,strangers,thoughts,ideas,homework.It all results in me getting upset sometimes. Well anyways back to the american dream.Me, juss like everyone out there will exercise my right to "pursue happiness."Im gonna find that one person, that one occupation that will make me happy. The American dream wat a joke.I dont want to beleive in that, but yet i keep thinking about it and it makes me frustrated, and sooner or later pisses me off to the point where i wanna fuckin punch somebody! Anger,sadness,depression,all these feelings will strike you in the weakest stops at times, and we have to learn to deal with them some way or the other.So do you still beleive in such things?

AC Transbitch

On march 5, 2009 I had the worst wait of my life. Me, Tito, and Miguel. take the bus over to HDS (Hjos Del sol) on B street at around 4:30. When we arrive at the youth center we were makin beats and chillin. the time finally came to go home. We walked to the bus stop. Were arrived a the bus stop at exactly 6:55 pm. at this time of night its not the best time to be standing outside because it is really cold. 7:15 came along but not one bus has passed. i start to get impatient because its not here! I start to pace back and forth, now i have a sweater on but im am freezing my balls off! Miguel and tito try to calm me down and sit down. around 7:30 we start to freestyle for a minute about school. then we stop, around 7:35 our friend Noel from the youth center turns the corner and tells us why were still waiting for the bus. I explain to him that we have been standing out here for 45 minutes but not one bus has passed. He didnt seem to care much. At this point im getting really impatient I keep pacing back and forth hoping that the bus will turn the corner and show up! We start to freestyle again for a minute. Tito then pulls out a audio recorder and tells me how i feel about the situation. I take the recorder and say a few words. finally i check the time and it is 8:05! the bus turns the corner, finally going home! I sat in the bus thinking that i have been standing in the cold for an entire hour with nothing to do, and without going insane! Worst public transportation experience ever!

Here I am

where do i begin? i have been the victim of all my acts. i have let things happen for my own satisfaction. Little do i know of how selfish i have been. I pray at night begging god to protect those around me. Because I am the danger,I am the monster, I am reason to your unhapiness. I am the problem to every solution. I bring trouble to all of those around me, I bring guilt to every persons heart. Now all these selfish deeds and guilty feelings come back to haunt my dreams. I often wake up with a sick stomach, i often wake up with a blank look on my face, no emotion no expression just a zombie. A zombie that means no harm but has caused so much. Today I sat in class thinking, where did i go wrong? Do some people really dont like me? I'm sure there are people out there that wish I could just go away, leave everything and everyone behind. I often think that, but if theres anything ive learned from these experiences is that, there will always be people that love you. whether they say it or not, they care for you, in the same way you care for them.I have been Someone that has lived their life by the rules of somebody else's. But not now, not ever again. I have choosen to make my decisions, pursue my dreams. Grasp them tight, and never let go. I have choosen to move forward and keep going. The real world here i come.

Late Night Creep

A strange guy, a rebellious guy, a guy that is accepted nowhere. This person coasts through life one day at a time. Time is not a factor, bullshit is not an exception. this mysterious person goes through a routine during the day, but come night fall.He is known as the "Creep."

Creep-to approach slowly, imperceptibly, or stealthily

he wanders the streets of Hayward some nights. He enjoys the night, he enjoys the cold air against his hands. Stealthily, he creeps into peoples houses, he gets into private property's. Why? the creep does not enjoy the day, the creep enjoys the night more. He just walks, runs, and he keeps running, thinking about how can he be a better person. The creep has gone through his shares of struggles, the only thing to relief this stress,and anger. He "dips." the creep sneaks out of his house very late, and runs off into the night. Conflicts? yes. Cops, the creep hates cops. this guy has been chased by cops before, and its definitely not the last time.The irony of the creep is.. that he is a good guy, the sweetest person you'll ever meet, a gentlemen in the eyes of grown ups. breaking the curfew law here in Hayward..how is this man a nice guy?who is this guy? the world may never know.

Family Guy

Ok so like movies are great entertainment. but, nothing, not one t.v show can beat the comedy and the stupidity of family guy. Yea, i know some of you guys might no what im talking about. this show got so many viewers hooked! but, there are other people that disagree and that show is just plain STUPID! Here's my bit on this topic.television producers and broadcasters targeted a young audience and used many different ads like consumer products, and certain celebrity's. This show has it all, you name it.Some of the things that are shown on that show come off as offensive to some people. whether its a racial remark or just something the character is doing. I like this show beleive it or not. I enjoy comedy, and family guy just so happens to be funny to me.I will not be surprised if this show continues to air. Though some may want this show to be cancelled, reruns will continue to air forever! Parents, if you know whats good for your children, i say dont show them this show at an early age.Mature audience only.
Heres a little of that stupidity,created by someone on youtube.Enjoy

School

Who ever said school was so weak? yea its true it sucks. Think about it you sit in a class room for about an hour and half 4 times each day with only a 45 minute break in between. My school Tennyson high school located on Whitman street in Hayward, Californ-i-a, is not the best school Ive ever gone too. I hear many rumors talkin bout.."Tennysons hella weak", "Tennyson is garbage." welll....Its true. I personally dont like this school. but i cant hate on the school that gave me the education to move onto a higher education. this is my fourth year in high school and i think its the best! my senior year has been the best of my life. My experience has been really good because i have been able to do things that not many people get to do in their time in high school. I have many personal memorys that I share in this school that i have shared with many different people. My very first fight with an older guy happened on that campus. It was after school and i was just walking thru campus when 3 guys come from behind me and my two other friends, and try to jump us. Me as well as y two other firends stood our ground and fought them. Not one of my best experiences but, i will remember that day forever. Some of my best memories also happened at this school. For ex. I meet My best friend Tito B. here. This mcfaggol and i have become close friends. I now consider this nigga as my brother. Yea friendship is a beautiful thing, i got his back and hes got mine. I also meet thee best people in the world! C.J,Cynthia, drea, chely, miguel, lucero, shannon, Michelle. you guys are thee shyt! thanks for saving me. Best experience that i have shared at this school by far.

Movies

Movies...yea this is my favorite kind of entertainment. i watch too many movies its not even funny. If theres one thing im really pationate about is movies. i like the way actors carry out thier characters roll. my movie experience is something i really enjoy because when i watch moies you escape the realistic. You take a step out of reality for about an hour and a half. When im feling down i tend to get online and just browse for movies. Old classic movies like "Casa Blanca" or new more recent movies like "The Dark Knight." My kind of movie experience would include a some junk food,drinks and a sofa. Yea very casual movie night. But what i would describe as my best movie experience would be....A high definition t.v with a blue ray dvd player, and surround sound. Yea kinda chessy but.. the entertainment is defenitley worth it. I just recentley watched a movie called "sex drive." I would catagorize this movie as a "chick flick," y? because its a romantic comedy. These movies dont really capture my attention. Yea i guess im not much of a sentimental guy. maybe wtv. Anyways.. this movie was actually really goo i thought. a 18 year old boy meets a girl on the internet, and drives 9 hours across the country to meet up with her and supposedly "have sex with her." Dont ask y this movie was good entertainment. just go out and watch it yourself.